So lets see... I haven't been here in a long time but I'm here now. Natalie is still doing good and already has brought so much laughter into everyone.

Knott's is still going good. I got  my "quarter" raise a few weeks ago. Its not that much but I am looking to see this job threw. Right now I'm watching Oprah. Tim McGraw and Faith Hill are on it... Kinda  interesting I suppose... I'm really bored. I already cleaned my room as much as I ever will. I found ALOT of change in there too. My sis is suppose to be coming over with the dog today but I dont know when exactly she'll be here. I'm also REALLY hungry. I was going to walk down to The Loft to get a job application but I have to wait for my sis... but right now I'm off to take a shower...

~Jadelin~

She's HERE!

I didn't know that something so amazing (sex) could make something so beautiful (Natalie). But she's finally here. Mika gave birth to her Wednesday morning. She had to be induced. She wanted to go all natural but towards the end she couldn't take it. So she had gotten the pain releif stuff but still felt the contractions on her right side. So when they looked again she was a full TEN freaekn inches and about to give birth. The baby came out around 5:51 am. She is soo beautiful! Mika and Oscar are very happy but Mika's still scared to be alone with the baby. I stayed with her last night... It was the least I could do. But she called her mom 'cause she didn't feel safe. I could understand and since only one person could stay with her I went home to get some sleep. I still couldn't sleep right. There were so many things Mika and I were talking about when it was just us two but maaan... It made me REALLY think... I mean its a BABY nothing will be the same for them now... I dont know what else there is to say so I'm just gonna end it here... SHE'S HERE!!

~Jadelin~

Today was a day for change...

Today is the first time that I went crazy and did something I might regret later.. I chopped off my hair!! Yes I know its a shock to many of you who do know how connected I am to my hair... It's very short for me but not too short. Its actually the same length as my sister's so when we stand next to eachother we look very much alike. The only difference is that she has highlights and I dont... The lady who cut my hair wanted to color and layer it but cutting it was hard enough for me so I said no. Maybe someother day... After that I went and did another crazy thing... As my mother calls it... I pierced my ear. The top part on my right ear. My sis held my hand when I got it done... I have to admit YES I almost cried but my mo just made me laugh... lol... It seemed like with everything today I almost cried... Shit I was closer to crying when I cut my hair then my ear... So now I have the solution to wash and clean it with. Even though my work prohibits it my hair does cover it so I hope that all goes well... For at least the next two months. Its just a stud but yeah....

I feel... fustrated. It seems that when my family is doing great I cant escape the criticism. Apparently I need to be saved. 'Cause today my aunt told me she was goign to pray for me... "Pray that I will be ok, that I will find God's help, and that if I continue on this path that God will have mercy on me when that day comes"... I felt so... wrong. That there was something wrong with me... But then as she left and I walked into my room I sat and held Jess... He was a comfort to hold. I cant believe that just holding him I thought of her how when we were together things were scary but love made it all worth it. Yes I threw it all away. But even then I think of the talks we still have and how I know that there is nothing wrong with me. I also know that God does and will still love me...

~Jadelin~

omg today was Saturday!! At Knott's Saturdays are pretty crazy and I didn't really notice how busy it was until I saw how packed all our lots were. Like usually things are busy in one lot. And the other ones have trouble getting cars over but today EVERYTHUNG was crazy. I only worked in one lot and then moved to another lot to help park cars. Its not that hard but then I had the easy parts of all!! Standing in one place pointing in one direction. So after a while when there was no parking people got all mad at me 'cause there was no one in the area I was sending them to... hahahaha!! What the fuck ever. It wasn't my fault that they came so late. So anyhow after that I just sat around the office for a while and then took off. Some people were going to a Hookah bar but I didn't have much interest in going. So maybe I'll call them later and see about doing other shit. Like bowling or pool... Today when I was on lunch these two girls kissed and everyone was all grossed and shit and I didnt' get what the big deal was. but maybe its just 'cause I've kissed another girl too so yeah... but anyhow, after all that I was talking to one of the guys and he kept going on about how girls like certain types of guys and blah blah blah... I was thinking... Yeah I did like those types of guys. BUT THEN one of the other girls went off about the types of girls some guys may like and he was just nodding and laughing. So after so many comments he talked about how girls can be soo fucken confusing!! And somehow I just said "Yeah I know what you mean..." and he was like FINALLY a girl can admit to being complicated... Which I know I am, but when I hear things about how girls can be confusing I can see how guys are so dumb... lol But anyhow its time to go...

~Jadelin~

PS: Who the hell knew about Amanda Ramirez?

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